while trying to fit in with the holiday spirit…
I feel I’ve been selfish.
I’ve focused too much on myself, complaining, and bitter– and forgot to be considerate enough for others.
Was it because of the time I was at VMD, without having time for myself? Without having time for my family and loved ones, due to my busy schedule? Was it because I was too tired after work, I forgot there are other people around? Whatever the reasons I could muster to speak out loud, I feel I should’ve done something to not be selfish and rant about how hard my work is.
There is no one to blame but myself.
So now, I would like to apologize to everyone.
I apologize to everyone who I’ve talked to for the past 6 months, if I’ve sounded groggy, snobby or even bitchy. Work has just been too hard on me, but now that I’ve been transferred to a lighter desk job, I’ll try and make it up to you.
I apologize to the people I’ve made promises to, online or offline, deviantart or just around. I’ll try and keep up ^^;
I apologize to my parents and sister, who has been affected by my previous field works and shared my sleepless nights; picking me up from set-ups / events at ungodly hours, doing favors for me, heck even sharing my problems. I wouldn’t have lived through everything without you guys. I hope I can make it up to you. I feel such a burden.
I apologize to the beloved, who has been so patient, understanding and open. Listening to me rant and cry thru text, phone call or face to face, at any given time or day. When you said you’ll try to make me happy, you didn’t need to try at all. All the effort and things you’ve done for me manages to make me smile. I’ve never really expressed how much I’m very thankful for everything you’ve done for me… I love you.
I apologize to everyone. I do want to thank you.
I’m surviving Christmas, because of you.
Merry Christmas!
I love you all!
