How can I help?
I fail to speak the words, as I have no confidence in actually helping at all. I want to, but the shadow of doubts of what I can do to help is overpowering. So if I stay silent…
It’s not because I don’t want to help. It’s because I don’t know how to help. It’s not because I have nothing say. It’s because I don’t know what to say.
Help me help you.
But frankly, I don’t know If I can. I want to, but can I?
If you’ve noticed lately, I have a couple of posts that have been deemed protected or comments are disabled. They are signposts of words I have said alone in a forest, but you were never able to hear. And even if you did hear, I had covered my ears.
It was my own moment of loneliness, and as someone had termed, a private loneliness. A loneliness that is neither good nor bad, but one that you somehow need. It was a time of loneliness that I had to share with one person alone, a loneliness that is bitter and sweet all at the same time.
But I do appreciate all the people who were concerned and asked how I am. I just needed some time alone. Thank you so much.
And yes, if you’re wondering, am back to my old self — minus the sniffles, the sore eyes and the preoccupying thoughts.
*hugs and kisses*
Now, back to work~
I’m sorry if my emotions got the best of me.
I’m sorry my emotions clouded my judgement… clouded my trust in you.
I trust you.
And I don’t think that this trust will fade, as you’ve proven your self of my trust one too many times.
And I would be deeply sad if a simple mistake will make me lose you.
I’m sorry.
…
I’ll continue to believe, despite my own shortcomings.
It’s the only way I know how…
You taught me how.
