I’m trying to paint again. And if above sample is of any indication, I may have lost the skill.
It’s sort of a quick “sketch” of one of the images I have been picturing in my head recently. So I wasn’t actually going for realism here, but I was going for something painterly bordering on abstraction . And just want to convey some emotion to my brush strokes, but it feels lacking. But am happy enough to post it here, or I’m just posting it here just to show it.
The point of the matter I guess is while doing the above painting digitally, I realised how much I missed painting in oils — The tactility, the smell, the visuals. And I realised how much I want to go back painting, but my confidence is equally lost to the years without practice. And part of my brain tells me I can’t really go back the same way as I was before. If I do want to go back that way, it’ll be different — I should be different.
Years of focusing in web design was a complete detour from the road that would have been a painting career. I don’t regret it. But I somehow wished that veering off the path and going back to visit the other road didn’t mean pain.
I might do more paintings like this in the near future just to realise the images running through my head. So don’t expect really pretty pictures or realistic ones, especially when I’m out of practice.
I would like to apologise now for being… completely vague or not understandable. It’s nostalgia talking.
Avignon is a character from a collaboration with Ami.
